fangirljen: (Group hug of awesome!)
My brain is too tired to come up with any real description of today's trip to Long Beach, in specifics to see the Star Trek Tour. I'm not a Trekkie, or a Trekker, by any means, but it was fun. Hung out with friends, three who were hyped about it, so that made it very awesome. Also, what I witnessed? Even more awesome. Katie met people from the Star Trek fan series Hidden Frontier and it was such a beautiful moment to witness. Goodness knows she's seen me meet enough people I like!

Besides the meetup with the Hidden Frontier guys (which was so random! This was their first time at the tour. What luck! And you know what I say to that? Not luck! It was meant to be. :D ), seeing the Zach Quinto look-a-like was one of my fav moments! He was running this booth where you can get filmed into three minutes of an ep of Classic Trek. He had thick eyebrows (though they weren't Sybrows), the hair, the smile, the ears. The only thing was he probably had about twenty pounds on Quinto and wasn't as tall, but aside from those two things, daamn. He might just be some distant relative or something! So crazy. And I wasn't the only one to think that he shared a strong resemblance to Quinto. We all agreed. Usually it's just Jen imagining these things, but nope, not this time! LOL I told him he should be Zach's stand-in and tell people that he is Zach. :D What a place for him to be working. *L*

Besides Katie, [livejournal.com profile] scififreak, [livejournal.com profile] hystericblue42, and [livejournal.com profile] sarumann were with us, too. Good people. This is only the second time I've met [livejournal.com profile] sarumann in person, but I feel like I know him better than that--likely because of LJ! I felt loved. These are good people. I love having friends offline who are as geek as me. It's a blessing.


Edit: Check out Sarumann's report for pictures and Katie's report for more info!
fangirljen: (Elizabeth in thought)
I was putting a lot of time and effort into getting my body moving and it seems to have gotten the better of me. Yesterday, I got this twinge of pain in my foot while I was doing steps. I tried massaging and this technique of pushing away the negative energy I watched my ex bf do on me once. More with the pushing and less with the massaging, the pain went away for a little while. It persisted when I walked anywhere, though, and didn't seem to lessen that much when I wore comfortable shoes. When I woke up this morning, the pain was still there and I decided that it was best that I stayed up, stayed in bed, and kept off of it as long as possible. The pain has decreased now and it's just sore. :( I'm not sure what's up, if it's sprained, or there's a nerve thing going on, or something else entirely.

On top of that, my pedometer isn't working! :(
fangirljen: (Rory & Jess)
Since I last wrote, four hours ago (how'd that happen?!), I didn't get to writing. Instead, I checked my new pedometer (there's a nice little story there, but I'll shorten it to this: it was listed as 4.99, though it rang up for 21.99. Target is cool with their policy and they gave it to me for 4.99! Woot!) and it said I had gone about 4000 steps since I started wearing it. I couldn't have that. I wanted 10,000, the number of steps medical people suggest is needed in a day. So I set out to get 10,000--which doesn't include the steps I made at work or the ones at Target. Most of the steps I made in my room by dancing and moving to a good dozen different songs that I listened on my new CD player (also a wonderful buy for 9.99!) What seems so amazing to me is how far 10,000 steps is: roughly 5 miles! Whoa! o.o I'm toying with the idea of taking part in the 3Day. I mean, if I was physically fit enough come November to do that? That would be fantastic!

Besides going 6,000 steps, I did something I've never done before: I chopped off a few inches of my hair. :D It dawned on me that I didn't necessarily need to go to a salon to get my hair cut (I know, really stupid..*L*). I'm being tighter with a buck in some ways. Or, maybe not exactly tighter, but I'm weighing expenses more. So now my hair is about three inches shorter. Still so thick and I wish I could get it thinned out a bit, but it feels lighter and is a good style for Spring. :D

When I was in my room working out, I found my copy of A Lifetime of Love: Poems on the Passages of Time, by Leonard Nimoy. :D I was shocked to see that not only was Nimoy an acclaimed actor, photographer, but he was a poet as well! And sappy love poetry is his choice. Perfect for the season! :D

So I'll now share with you his first poem.
Leonard Nimoy's sappy love poetry! )
fangirljen: (Seen My Lost Puppy?)
Swiped this from [livejournal.com profile] pyro_monkey17. While it's a long meme, 24 questions, it's an informative one. It'll also help me get to know you better, as there are many people here I don't know that well yet. :( I had an influx of friends, some of whom I don't know. :( Feel free to add information, too, if you like. And it'll get people seeing who else is on the flist too. :D

I feel like I have many more words to write today. My brain is actually working right. :D

fangirljen: (Always)
But not too bad, all things considering. Eighteen days out of 31. But that's not exactly true, because I have a few days of writing that I still have to add. I was hoping to have that done by now, but it wasn't meant to be. Okay. I'll work it out next month.

January was a rollercoaster month for me. My interests changed so much, my focus shifted from one thing to another. It feels like more time occurred and there were times that I was sure that more time than a month has passed. I keep on thinking to things I did in December and can't believe that the events were then. The Jules Verne Festival? The WGA Heroes Day strike? They seems like ages ago!

I know this month had some good highlights. I got lots of new character ideas in this month, and picked up another canon char. But that's for writing fun, not regarding my life and career. I'm still having trouble with writing cover letters. I finally found a good one. I have another job I'm going to apply to, so I'll think the night on this prompt, and hopefully have a better idea tomorrow what to say in mine. :D

Today I just feel like I'm in a mental slump. Brain is all...blah. And I got extra sleep, too! Darnit. It's PMS time again.

LJ's pimping it, but it looks cool! [livejournal.com profile] thenicestthings

Howie Day - "Collide"
fangirljen: (Puppy love!!)
Are you constantly feeling down about yourself? Don't feel like your life thus far has amounted to much? That your successes just aren't enough to make you feel fulfilled? Are you for yearning for something, but can't put your finger on it? Are you constantly anxious about finding success and perfection, but find you always fail? You're not alone! From my unofficial observations, these feelings seem to be prevalent among late teens and twenty-somethings who feel more than you're normal person (because those people who don't feel as much, he or she typically doesn't care so much). And, as it happens, many of my friends seem to be in this group, too. And what are we doing? Still continuing the way things have been in our lives. While we may be making changes, the problems still remain. The fears are still there.

Getting back to what I said earlier: you're not alone. This is key. People typically dislike being alone. And when one wants to change his or her life, making those differences can be scary. But if there are other people there to support you when you fall, to offer positive imput, love, you are likely to be more successful than you would be if you were doing it alone.

If you are interested in such a group, then I give you The Feel Good Club! We focus on the positive and (realistically) building you up. I don't know about for you, but when I think of something in a logical manner instead of the way my brain normally twists it, then I see that I don't have as many problems as I previously believed.

Besides giving support and love to your fellow club members, there's something you have to do for yourself too. Each day, you must do one good thing in your life. It doesn't matter what you do as long as you complete it. This something must be something that you're not going to feel guilty about later on. You complete it and enjoy your accomplishment. It might also be good to keep a written running total of what you've accomplished. Another cool thing to do is, at the start of your day, write down what you feel is a good thing in your life. Your daily blessings, essentially. You may find that you have more good going in your life than you previously thought!

Who wants to join me? :D




Natasha Bedingfield's "Unwritten"
fangirljen: (Literati Kiss)
Confetti cake and coffee with vanilla creamer are so yummy together. <3 Good way to end an uneventful evening. Four hours of sleep was also good. :D Still need a different job. Nothing has come in yet with any of my apps I've sent, and I don't really expect to hear anything--except for the RCC one. I'm really hoping on that one. One good thing about working from 6-10 means that I can be home at 11 and watch Gilmore Girls. I'm catching up on all the Milo eps that I saw a few years ago, but when I didn't care so much about Jess. Like with Boston Public, I remember these scenes and watching the eps.

Once again, I'm thinking of doing a Literati layout. I'm still very much in the mood for romantic love, even if it's by vicarious means and my life is at a standstill.


Plain White T's - Hey There Delilah
fangirljen: (Any Road Will Get You There)
Monday afternoon I had a fantastic time at LACMA with Niala and Amy. :D I had never been to LACMA before, outside of the time I went to the King Tut exhibit. And that day, I only went to the exhibit, not the rest of the museum. I would have liked to have seen the Japanese art on this trip, but I love what I saw. Even the Christian art, which, I have to say got to be tiring to look at. There's SO much of it! Room and room is filled with it. They didn't have any of the Italian Renaissance pieces that I love, like Judith Decapitating Holofernes or Judith With the Head of Holofernes, both by Artemisia Gentileschi. Though, the one with Lot and his daughters was interesting. Can you say incest? And not in the good way, either. Uggh. I still want to find a Elisabeth Louise Vigée Le Brun piece in California. It seems that The Vicomtesse de Vaudreuil is at the Getty and Portrait of Theresa, Countess Kinsky is at the Norton Simon. My absolute favorite one of hers--a self-portrait and the first painting I ever saw of Vigée Le Brun's is Self-Portrait in a Straw Hat. I love the expression on her face, the way she's standing, what she's wearing, the whole piece. And her hair. *L* She has this whimsy quality to her that I identify with. Then I learned about her and found she was a very complex and fascinating person. She engaged her audience and consciously constructed her place in society and how she wanted people to view her.

Now I did see a piece at LACMA that I had hoped to see there: Millard Sheets' Angel's Flight. It's one of two of his famous pieces that were not at the Exhibition at the Millard Sheets' Gallery, during the LA County Fair. The other piece is Tenement Flats, which is part of the permanent collection at the Smithsonian--after hanging in the White House during Roosevelt's tenure. What's funny is earlier in the day I had been talking about Angel's Flight to a co-worker. I couldn't remember if it was the piece at LACMA or the Smithsonian. Then I came across a Steinbeck novel, one I hadn't heard about before, that was using Tenement Flats as cover art and the info on the back answered my question. *L*

Somehow I totally missed this when I saw the page last. It seems that the CD Baby page for Atlanta actually has samples of the music! Good sized samples, too. They're all over a minute long. So I've been listening to it over and over again. :D The tracks aren't being sung by the Geffen cast, but Marcus Hummon and members of the TN cast, I think. Anyway, it's very good. :D
fangirljen: (Puppy love!!)
It's nice being tired not because I've stayed up too late, but because I've worked out a lot. It's a...weird to say it, but a clean kind of tired. The sort of tired that doesn't make my brain wobbily, just my body. I think it's easier to find dreaming that way, too. And I had yet another dream last night. This one had me at work and asking for a raise. I'm basically ignored. :( Then I start crying in front of co-workers and managers.

Today I went with Kristen to church. Lots of fun. Kept dancing during Worship. The afterward is always fun. I talked with Ulysses again. He's so easy to talk with. Another short post today...more when I'm awake enough to post. *L*
fangirljen: (Seen My Lost Puppy?)
Okay, so I've been writing for my blog, but you just haven't seen it. Dear God! I'm 37 pages behind! These are half pages with only about 150 words (yeah, it'll matter; I'm counting! *L*) per side, but still. That's a lot left for me to type. And I'm going to back date it all. At least by the weekend I'll be up-to-date.

I'm a bit sorry to say, but I like this less online time business I've managed to do in my life. It might not seem like it, but I am on a lot less. And when I'm on, I'm just sort of sitting here, chatting it up on IM, or listening to music. Not much of anything else is getting done. The trade off seems to be my brain is processing better. Like, I'm actually dreaming and remembering the dreams, which I haven't been able to do for a while. As I touched on in an earlier entry (as you will see later *L*), the fact that I wasn't doing REM sleep is pretty unhealthy. But I'm working on finding that balance: not spending too much time online and getting more sleep. And while I'm online, actually doing what I need to do: search for a job, fulfilling projects I owe people, and RP posts.

Speaking of projects, I've taken up another one. I've flirted with it before, but never have actually attempted it. I'm going to need help from you guys. I'm looking for Fangirls who have made accomplishments in some way in fandom that other people dream of accomplishing. This could be anything: meeting someone, making a fan movie, holding some acclaim as a fanfic writer. Something that you're infamously known for, or should infamously known for. If this fits you, e-mail me at writerfangirl @ gmail dot com, with keyword "Fangirl Interviews". Also, if you have any recommendations of fangirls who I should talk to, that would be fab too. This is just a fun little side project to let people meet fangirls who have accomplished much in their fandom.


The Killers - "All These Things That I've Done"

Just a GIP

Jan. 8th, 2008 02:53 pm
fangirljen: (Sexy Nathan and Heidi)
Chilling for a few minutes online and what do I find? My friend made a new Heidi/Nathan icon! It's so sexy, it hurts. Why fore can't they have more time together like that on the show? Bah. I need some fic now. And the Writers Strike to end. And for Rena Sofer to be on Heroes more than 24. But until then, there's fic and pretty icons! Yays! :D
fangirljen: (Some Family)
I had a serious case of missing Heroes tonight. I mean, even if the season was still going on, new eps wouldn't start for weeks yet. Miss watching with [livejournal.com profile] brokenbacktango (and we seriously need to rewatch the eps, though I know you streamed them recently!) and writing about them in [livejournal.com profile] heroes_pointcp. I need to get myself in good discussion. That's fun times. :D No Heroes exactly, but tomorrow we're going to see if we can get tix for Atlanta! *Flail* It's their Talk Back Tuesdays, where a discussion is held after the play. I'm praying Adrian's taking part. Because so made of awesome right there. :D I hope I meet him again, but if I don't, that's fine. I'm also hoping about running into Leonard Roberts again. I want to ask him about his Voltron. :D

Tonight was the premiere episode of Medium. I always like watching this show. Before it came out, I remember thinking about how the premise reminded me of a character I had. And then I found that the show is based on a real woman's life. LOL Haha. The new storyline works. I do hope they keep Anjelica Huston around. She was fab. :D

Damnit, Katie. I really gotta find my Linkin Park CD! *flails*


Linkin Park's "Numb"
fangirljen: (Save the Cheerleader...er wrong fandom)
Originally written on January 2nd, 2008

The hallmark of the new year is to make resolutions and then break them. With the blank slate, people dream big of things, sometimes unrealistic to what they are actually able to achieve. I think that anybody can achieve the resolutions they set out for themselves if they have the resolve (heh, there's your root word right there) to. Resolve is difficult to build. I think of a car that is stuck in a mud puddle. The faster you go doing the same thing, you'll just tire out but will remain in the same place. There is no forward motion until something (that's the change) that pushes you out and gets you moving and the push by momentum--unless you stall out. But I'm not going to think about that. What I am going to think about is being pushed by momentum. That's how I got through two NaNoWriMos and my last year at UCR. This is why I thrive so well with a plan. I know where I want to end up. With that in mind, I can use any means to get there. I also know what resources are available to me. Like, for instance, my plan for a change in lifestyle.

The Game Plan

Walk - for at least an hour and once a week. I'd like to walk an hour a day, but I don't know how that will look in reality, especially when the weather is less than agreeable. Today, Katie and I walked around the Ontario Mills. It wasn't an hour, but it was a good walk. It helps me when I'm going somewhere in my walking. I like having a mission. A few days ago, I walked to downtown. And while there, I bought myself an iced tea. Very tasty. :D Those small rewards are very nice.

Sleep more - Go to bed between 11-12. Even after I get another job (though should be 10-11 by then, especially if job is going to be in LA or Riverside), 5 hours is the minimum. I'll shoot for six or seven when I get that down. Eight is definitely preferable, though.

Time for myself once a day - This can be anything that isn't demanding something of me. Meditate is the best thing. I feel better when the blood is pumping and my brain is clear. This seems logical, but feeling it is different. When I have had panic attacks in the past, I could make them go away by focusing on my breathing. Focus on that and I can't keep the uncomfortable thoughts around.

Dance, Dance Revolution - When I was in LA last weekend with Katie and Jessica, I first experienced this marvelous game. I've seen it before but just never played it. The game is both fun and challenging. I like keeping score. I know it would keep me busy for hours. I'm going to buy an at home unit when I have more money. Between this and walking, I think I can get pretty trim. I thought dancing might be a good thing for me after I watched a special on Richard Simmons. I honestly haven't found a sport or exercise that works as well as DDR. I think it even made me start wheezing, but my mind felt great afterward.

Eat better - I am going to keep fastfood mostly out of my life as it has been for over a month now. It is more for financial reasons, but it will be for food choice reasons, too. When I go out, I'll make choices for food that isn't fried, but fresh. Veggies, fruits, whole grains. Less processed. When I have the money, I am willing to buy the healthier stuff. I need to look into foods that promote stronger thinking (grapefruit, according to Richard Gilmore on The Gilmore Girls) and definitely fruit juice regularly when we have it (which hopefully will be constant). When I had my year with OJ, I didn't get sick that much. I've had blocked sinuses for ages now. It doesn't do much with preventing good thoughts, only fuziness. I'd like to finally get over that.

Creating/maintaining a better living space - This has always been difficult for me, likely because I have a lot of things and then don't put them away. I'm honestly not sure how this always gets out of hand for me. Maybe because it wasn't important to me. If it isn't, I seem to miss things. Blinders are on, or something. But with my outside environment being encouraging, that will help my brain.

Heroes: A Nathan Petrelli Tribute - "The Shadow of the Day" (Linkin Park) (Spoilers for "Powerless")

Writing Day

Jan. 5th, 2008 02:47 pm
fangirljen: (be strong and be brave)
Put on my Writer's cap. Let's see if it takes me anywhere.



Matchbox Twenty's "Let's See How Far We've Come"
fangirljen: (Disappointed Timelord)
5:23AM

I look forward to the time when I actually get up at the time my alarm first indicates (today was 4:40...but I changed that to 5:00 when I had to get up a few minutes after four to let the dog out. She always seems to want out twenty minutes within the time I'm supposed to be getting up. Would be nice if she had the decency of waiting!)

I was talking to [livejournal.com profile] brokenbacktango last night about blogging. She, like other people I know too, blog her daily life. I'd like to do that, but my life is boring. I mean, I don't think I'd want to read about it.

Here's my usual week-day: wake up thirty-forty minutes before work starts at 6; find something to eat (cereal, toast, or yogurt if I have it); get dressed (hope that my pants are washed. Lucky, haven't had a day where I couldn't find any); go to work; spend four hours shelving, alphabetizing, shifting; go home; go online for an hour; watch Gilmore Girls if it's a Milo episode; nap for a few hours; back online and take care of RP posts, look for a job (and hope to send app...I have a difficult time with the follow through), SNP business. Stay online until I get offline between 11-1.

No wonder I'm depressed, honestly! *L*

My mom asked me outright if I hated my job, and I said with complete certainty that I did. There are aspects of the job I like--the store, the employees (most of them)--but is it challenging? No. Is it taking me anywhere? No. I'm wasting away there. I haven't heard back on most of the jobs I've applied to in the last few months. There was a job in Claremont I was hoping for, but it was a no-go. They let me know by a handwritten notecard. Their thoughtfulness was taken into account, but it didn't make up for the fact that I didn't get the job. I have a lot of trouble 1. finding jobs that I qualify for; 2. finding jobs that are in areas that I can get to (I'm not familiar with LA's mass transit; however, now I know I can get to a great many places in North LA by train. Hollywood, Universal, places like that); and 3. following through (leaving out 3 was just an example of that! But everybody reading now won't have seen that 3 wasn't there until now, after I re-read what I had written). Gahh. This is still ever getting old.

Who out there has gone through this? Just waste away and then get their lives back on track. I know that I have things better than a lot of people. I have a house, food, people who love and care about me. It's just the happiness that I don't have. Gah, bloody fucking hell. *kicks self* I want what Nathan tells Linderman he wants: a life of happiness AND meaning. WTF. I really wasn't trying to make this fandom-related in any way. I've had these things at the same time, too. I just feel like I'm...something out there is meant for me. And that's why it bugs me so much that I'm letting myself do this.


The Weepies' "World Spins Madly On"
fangirljen: (Fangirl Dance!)
I'm looking for recommendations for both books and music to fill 2008 with. Tomorrow I'm going to make a list at work of the books that I've noticed that seem interesting. The thing I really like about handling fiction is that I get to see books that I otherwise would have missed. I was more familiar with the Science Fiction section. Unless I was going after something in particular, I hardly made a point to go into Literature. I've seen all of the literature books my store sells. A few days before the New Year, I finally was able to alphabetize everything. :D

While I'm composing my list, I'd like to know what are some of your favorite books? Have you read anything recently that just blows your mind? (Thanks for the pic, Katie! *chuckle*) And any music? If it has a beat that one can move to, I'm happy. Also a big fan of piano work, but that's optional. I know less about music and groups than I know about books, so any help with music is even more appreciated! :D

Some books that I remember that are currently on my list are:

1. Reading Like a Writer: A Guide for People Who Love Books and for Those Who Want to Write Them by Francine Prose

2. The Gun Seller by Hugh Laurie

3. Minor Characters by Joyce Johnson

4. Lover of Unreason: Assia Wevill, Sylvia Plath's Rival and Ted Hughes' Doomed Love by Yehuda Koren and Eilat Negev

5. City of Dreaming Books by Walter Moers

6. The Thirteenth Tale: A Novel by Diane Setterfield

7. The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger

8. Fruitflesh: Seeds of Inspiration for Women Who Write by Gayle Brandeis

9. Book of Dead Birds by Gayle Brandeis

And returning to a few of my old favorites:

10. Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within by Natalie Goldberg

11. Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë
fangirljen: (Default)
Okay, I said no Memes, but this one just...damn. Wow. It's just, well, ask people who know me in real life and they can vouch for this. I'm dumbstruck here. I mean, it's a fucking meme. It's not supposed to be accurate. Yoinked it from [livejournal.com profile] sampaguita_blue.



What Jennifer Means



You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.



You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.



You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.







You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.



You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.

You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.

Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.







You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.



For fun, I tried Jen the Fangirl and got some other results, one being this one:

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.


Which is probably more true about Jen the Fangirl than Jennifer, in all honesty. *L*

Personality traits of Jen the Fangirl )

One Republic's "Apologize"
fangirljen: (Petrellis ftw)
Written at 5:15AM


Recently, I made a couple of discoveries about my choice in movie genre: I'm a fan of the fluffy, British love comedy. On a similar token, I'm also a fan of the New York fluffy story. Enchanted made me realize this second theme. I bet it's related to my interests in Science Fiction. Many of the Marvel Comics lines are set in NYC or just outside. The setting is highly pertinent to the story. X-Men would not be the same without Westchester County or Peter Parker without his cheapo flat. So it's a fav setting when it has a whimsical nature. Other movies I like that have this theme are: Serendipity, Sweet November, Maid in Manhattan, Kate & Leopold, and Someone Like You. And mostly, they are about, typically an eccentric, or different thinking woman, getting the man who is too wrapped up in himself. Usually he's a lawyer, or wears a three-piece suit. She manages to get him to discover the simpler things in life, and they find love. The characters are different, but the plot doesn't change much.

HEH! Now it makes total sense why I fell so hard for Nathan Petrelli and am a Petrelicester to boot! So Heroes plays with the story and puts Peter in the female role. See! Petrellicest is canon and not just subtext. LOL The writers are playing with old plots, but just changed the two people involved. Hehe. This is awesome. Okay, that discovery was fun. Now it's time for work!


Seether's "Fake It"
fangirljen: (Fangirl Dance!)
Seriously? Who does? I guess I should be used to being off today after last Tuesday, but it really struck me this time. And now 2008. Weird. Is it a sign that I'm really getting old when I say, "Oh, 1998 wasn't that long ago." I have vivid memories from it. You know, those fresh ones that still feel new or newish. Bah. Maybe I'm trying to hold on to my late teens-early twenties-twenties period. Or I just have a memory of the awesome. And oops. I've wandered. I also meant to say that today feels weird because it's 7:30 AM and I'm at home, lunging in bed. Should be getting familiar with Julia & Julia as I wonder where I'm going to put the new copies (I had taken this "God won't give me anything I can't deal with" method at work (though I should know otherwise after being avalanched by Manga and then sending it back--I think it was sent back. God, I hope it wasn't tossed or something. Would that happen?) but it seems that the company sends things indiscriminately. WTF! Shouldn't they know that thirty-five copies of Julie & Julia is just too much?! I only use this book as an example because it's getting turned into a movie for a 2009 release (suddenly you're not so far away ole year to end the decade and marking of last year with two 0's. Hmm. 2008 is like double affinity: two 0's and the 8. Nice touch. Speaking of other "doubles", that's one part of the actual name of the statue used for Kirby Plaza--The Double Ascension, by Herbert Bayer (now that, while makes me think of Stargate: SG-1, has interesting connotations in Heroes, as there are multiple 'ascensions' going on. Double-doubles (just not the cheeseburger, which shall be what I get when I spend my In-n-Out 5 dollar gift card! Thanks Lyly of Borders!) Peter and Sylar and Peter and Nathan--though literally in the Petrellis' case. Oh yes, prop to scenery scout person who found this gem. I can just imagine it: "I know this awesome status downtown. We have to shoot there!" And, ironically, that statue really looks like the Godsend helix while viewed from above. I went back there with [livejournal.com profile] brokenbacktango and [livejournal.com profile] make_me_shiny. They reenacted Peter's and Sylar's scene as I took a couple of snaps.)

Okay, just stating this for new folks here (Allo!): my brain wanders like nobody's busy and I do my best to follow. My voice posts are much more scattered. I make no apologies, but wish to inform. At least I hope it is a fun and/or interesting ride. OCD with ability to draw weird connections \o/ (little guy who will now represent for the win or Yatta!)

Things I like to talk about and hopes for this journal for the year )

My main hope for this year is that it is a good one. I live, I love, I learn. I be easier on myself and not dwell on my deficiencies and errors. I give more. I take time out for myself everyday when I have nobody to worry about, not even myself. I think about what makes me angry, and look to correcting it. I think about what makes me depressed, and work on correcting that. My future is in my hands. Nobody else can change me but me. I am responsible for what happens to me. If I want to change, if I want to get better, I make it happen. If it doesn't happen as quickly, or as I want it to, I don't hold this against myself, either. Somethings things aren't meant to be even as much as we want them to. I just have to do my best with what I'm given. And my best is what I do at any given moment. How I perform now may not be directly comparable to how I performed ten, or even five years ago. I look at where I am now and go from there.


"Rewind" - A Nathan Petrelli Tribute

Blog 365

Dec. 31st, 2007 08:45 pm
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A few days ago, I joined up on Blog 365. The premise is following on the blog a day in November thingy that was recently held, but instead of a blog a day for a month, it's a blog a day for a year. Every day except for Leap Year. Daunting, crazy, and something I've never been able to accomplish, but I'm making 2008 about new beginnings. Really living up to my journal's title. I have a bunch of other resolutions to go with it--reasonable things, I think...trying for the reasonable--but I'll be posting about that later. It seems a lot of fun! I'm trying to pull together blogging ideas already. I'm hoping that if I blog every day, something of interest, or something cool will always come to me. Or maybe I'll wander down paths that I haven't in a while. I just really don't want to focus on the same crap that's been bugging me for ages. I feel like I'm finally getting over some of it, though. Some things are looking up. :D

Happy New Years to everybody. Stay healthy and safe. Have a great year! :D

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