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fangirljen) wrote2006-04-03 10:58 pm
fangirljen) wrote2006-04-03 10:58 pm
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This is All that I Am
To my dear friends and people who I have yet to meet:
Many of my friends, both offline and online, have mentioned to me, in passing or directly, how much of a high-spirited person I am. I am always happy, talking about the positives. In the last few years, however, I haven’t felt so joyful and carefree.
I have started searching for a more spiritually enriching life, because the life I have right now has not been that. It is not to say that I have not been happy, or have not felt joy, but I feel something lacking, incomplete.
I think a part of this unhappiness is entrenched in how I am saddened by workings of the world. I felt myself very close to the point of feeling that there is no possible chance of countries, groups of people within those countries, communities, reaching a resolution and acceptance for others until the human race is no more. At this point, I need to take a large step backward, because venturing to such a place in thought means entering a realm that would depress me further, with no way for personal resolution.
But maybe I have it wrong. If offensive comic strips and speeches can outrage people to make a stance instead of doing nothing, what could positive words that enrich and foster thought and discussion do to both groups?
There’s a lack of understanding between people and it downright scares me. When I was pulling out weeds on our meridian to save my mom from being arrested, or dragged to a court case, due to not having a “weeds clean” yard (simply for beautification purposes and NOT for safety issues), I started pondering on a rant about what I consider to be the crap in life that’s happening around the world right now, because people don’t seem to know how to stop, listen, and communicate with one another. While reading The Tao of Writing: Imagine. Create. Flow by Ralph L. Wahlstrom (a really awe-inspiring book, which, for me, has been both creatively and spiritually rewarding) I came upon a passage of text which inspired me to do something constructive instead of destructive. Wahlstom writes: “Simplicity is a tool for peace because it fosters cooperation and coexistence in place of competition and separation. Our writing can do the same. Words of peace create harmony between people, neighborhoods, and cultures. As writers, we strive for simplicity and clarity, to avoid misunderstanding, to promote cooperation. Writers often write to persuade. If this is done in a spirit of hatred or violence, it creates a ripple of energy that threatens to amplify and perpetuate hatred and violence, bitter fruit indeed. Writing for peace and harmony will bear the sweet fruit of peace” (136).
The idea which sprang was “The Confessionals Project.” Hopefully one day it will be a book, but at this moment it exists within this Livejournal entry.
Post as yourself, another identity, anon, multiple identities, with text, without text, with graphics, just what you think sums up who you are and how you want people to perceive you.
[And this is me]
Many of my friends, both offline and online, have mentioned to me, in passing or directly, how much of a high-spirited person I am. I am always happy, talking about the positives. In the last few years, however, I haven’t felt so joyful and carefree.
I have started searching for a more spiritually enriching life, because the life I have right now has not been that. It is not to say that I have not been happy, or have not felt joy, but I feel something lacking, incomplete.
I think a part of this unhappiness is entrenched in how I am saddened by workings of the world. I felt myself very close to the point of feeling that there is no possible chance of countries, groups of people within those countries, communities, reaching a resolution and acceptance for others until the human race is no more. At this point, I need to take a large step backward, because venturing to such a place in thought means entering a realm that would depress me further, with no way for personal resolution.
But maybe I have it wrong. If offensive comic strips and speeches can outrage people to make a stance instead of doing nothing, what could positive words that enrich and foster thought and discussion do to both groups?
There’s a lack of understanding between people and it downright scares me. When I was pulling out weeds on our meridian to save my mom from being arrested, or dragged to a court case, due to not having a “weeds clean” yard (simply for beautification purposes and NOT for safety issues), I started pondering on a rant about what I consider to be the crap in life that’s happening around the world right now, because people don’t seem to know how to stop, listen, and communicate with one another. While reading The Tao of Writing: Imagine. Create. Flow by Ralph L. Wahlstrom (a really awe-inspiring book, which, for me, has been both creatively and spiritually rewarding) I came upon a passage of text which inspired me to do something constructive instead of destructive. Wahlstom writes: “Simplicity is a tool for peace because it fosters cooperation and coexistence in place of competition and separation. Our writing can do the same. Words of peace create harmony between people, neighborhoods, and cultures. As writers, we strive for simplicity and clarity, to avoid misunderstanding, to promote cooperation. Writers often write to persuade. If this is done in a spirit of hatred or violence, it creates a ripple of energy that threatens to amplify and perpetuate hatred and violence, bitter fruit indeed. Writing for peace and harmony will bear the sweet fruit of peace” (136).
The idea which sprang was “The Confessionals Project.” Hopefully one day it will be a book, but at this moment it exists within this Livejournal entry.
Post as yourself, another identity, anon, multiple identities, with text, without text, with graphics, just what you think sums up who you are and how you want people to perceive you.
[And this is me]
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human, curious, inventive, tries to be non-judgmental (especially when others around are non-judgmental, too), judgmental and arrogant when receiving a judgmental/arrogant ‘tude (Treat others how they want to be treated, so I do), whimsical, universally-minded, sexual, subtextual, happy, loving, loves journeying, experiencing what I have never experienced before, (too) thoughtful, rambunctious, extravagant, doesn’t fit society’s image of a woman (but do I really want to?), thinking outside the box, out-spoken, colorful, complex, geeky, conversational, caring, contradictory, expressive, emotional, passionate, real, off-the-beaten-path, theatrical, over-thinking, silly, imaginative, threatening in a non-threatening manner, breaking conventions, setting new ways of thinking, multi-dimensional, a student of life
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(I was just reading your earlier post. Good job on the book list! I know it's not where you'd like it yet, but that is a lot of reading done!)
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Thanks! I'm shooting for the 50, really. If I get that, I'll be ecstatic. Anything over that will add more happiness. I don't think I've read 50 books in one year. I want to figure out how many I read last year. I know it was at least in the twenties or thirties.
Now if I can get to my story writing and I'll be all set! I seem to be more interested in non-fiction these days.
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(that pic of you is adorable, BTW!)
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The pic in my post? Not me! *L* It's a graphical representation of my ideas. :) I personally like to write in the bathtub, but I do it with pen and paper. :) The pic came from an article I found a few years ago.
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I'm not usually that deep, I don't think, but I have my moments. :)
You're welcome to it! I have friended you back.
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Being deep is fun. It can give one an interesting perspective in life.
Definitely! I just need a ride. You don't know anyone who lives west out by Ontario and Montclair, do you? I'm out in the IE, 909land.
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