fangirljen

“It is not given to us to know whether we shall succeed
or not. In failure there is no disgrace. There can be but
one ultimate shame — the cowardice of not having tried.”

-- Silver Surfer

December 15th, 2007 was a fantabulous day. Not because it was Michael Shanks' 37th birthday (and, aside from reading posts about that this morning, I plum forgot), but for Heroes. And not just everything Heroes, but what I achieved tonight. If not for my initiative and desire to share my love and appreciation, I would not have felt love and appreciation back from a man I've grown to admire over the course of this year. I had hopes of giving a hug to Adrian Pasdar, but at the Jules Verne Festival, I ended up getting a hug from Adrian Pasdar and acknowledgment. At home, I began crying about this. I can still feel the tears wanting to come back, even now a few hours after they first came out. All of those times at work I felt like I was just giving and giving and giving and going dry because it seemed like my extra work didn't matter. And then in Heroes fandom, where I'm being me, doing what I can, and I'm told such kind and thoughtful words from someone who has touched me, but is a stranger--granted one who I highly respect--this is big to me. I don't think he knows the gift he's given me tonight. :-D

(I'll be making a post about the actual event later today. Just need some time to gather my thoughts outside of the "I GOT PASDAR HUG!!" Check out